"He who has a why to live for, can bear almost any how." - Nietzche-

Thursday, October 29, 2009




We had so much fun with Daddy at SLCC. McKay loved the trees and the Lifetime Activities building!

Monday, October 26, 2009

Friday, October 16, 2009


"The cleaning and scrubbing can wait till tomorrow
But children grow up as I've learned to my sorrow.
So quiet down cobwebs; Dust go to sleep!
I'm rocking my baby and babies don't keep."
-Ruth Hamiilton

Friday, October 2, 2009

Monday, September 28, 2009


Saturday, September 19, 2009


Nana helped McKay make me a Birthday surprise. Thank you Nana and K!




Thursday, September 17, 2009


McKay loves the back yard!

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

A Funny Thing At Lunch...

I went to lunch today with my friend Kim and when we walked into Applebees the hostess said,

"Two adult menus?"

Kim looked at me and laughed. I thought it was funny and we followed the lady to the table and I said,

"Do I look like I qualify for a childrens menu?"

The hostess said,

"With some of the teenagers that come in here you'd be surprised."

I didn't tell her I'm almost 31 years old.

This family picture was taken just before Casey left on his mission.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

The Monty L. Bean Museum







A couple weeks ago McKay and I met up with some cousins and we all went to the Monty L. Bean Museum in Provo. McKay had a blast with the huge elephant on the main floor and the bears on the second floor. We got awesome ice cream from the Creamery and got to hang out with our cousins. Life is good!

Monday, August 24, 2009

Five Years!


We have been married five years as of August 4th.
I surprised Doug and dropped McKay off at Nana's
and took him on an adventure as I Love-Mapped
us! This is Doug at Davis High, the very place I was
standing when we had our first conversation on
the phone December 13, 2003! I picked spots to
take him all over the valley and gave him a love
note at each sight.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Grandma Roma


Today we went and spent some time with Grandma Roma. McKay freaked out last time we went so we had her come out by the fish tank and we all sat there and had a blast with Grandma!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Friday, July 24, 2009

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Wednesday, February 18, 2009



I will never forget what it felt like to hold him close to me those first few hours after he was born. What a miracle! My kidneys started to fail after a long, hard pregnancy and twenty-four hours of labor. They had to give me oxygen because things got scary for McKay and me, but we made it through by miracles all over and angels standing by. I carried him all the way to thirty-seven weeks, which was amazing. Doctor Esplin kept saying, "If you can just make it to twenty-four weeks he'll be ok." "If you can just make it to thirty weeks everything will be fine." and "Anything over thirty-two weeks is gravy." I was prepared for any circumstance. I knew the risks, the complications and the probabilities. When they put his tiny little body in my arms I was so tired and cold and honestly I felt totally overwhelmed, but I knew that I held a physical embodiment of God's love there in my arms. And he surpassed all the dreams I had had of his face and perfection. This amazing little man was my responsibility and I knew God would give me strength beyond my own to see that he will get the love and nurturing he needs.



























Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Doug is unabashedly romantic. I thought he was just going to buy me a cd or something for Valentines Day, though to me the best thing is an outward display of his most inward emotions. He has told me how hard it is for him to write his feelings down so I was pleasantly surprised when he handed me a beautifully stained wooden box and a rolled piece of paper tied with heart ribbon. I opened it and got lost in the poetry of his love and devotion on the linen paper. He loves to surprise me. He told me he also scheduled me for a hair appointment on Wednesday. What a man! He is amazing and I am so lucky he has stuck by me through everything! I love you Doug!

Monday, February 16, 2009




McKay has spent the better part of the morning making messes all over. I finally realized he was trying to get my attention and said, "Mommy wants to play with you! Let's go play!" And sure enough, he sat right by me and we put Mr Potato Head together and stacked blocks and read books. After I put him down for his nap I had to go back and wipe up the yogurt, spilled milk and crushed crackers that were all over the kitchen floor. I love how the simplest things please him. I need to remember to be more like him because he is the happiest, most adorable kid ever! (Even when he shoves chicken nuggets in any hole he can find!) Doug and I just laugh. He is a little boy and really really good at it! He loves any kind of cookie, yogurt(as a painting medium too), any chocolate, Elmo, Curious George, looking at fishies, birds and all his Grandparents. He loves to play with his cousins. We had a sleep over with them on Satruday night and he was the happiest kid to be surrounded by all those fun boys! He has learned how to take his diaper off and I went in to see why he was yelling loud when he should have been sleeping and pointed at his discarded dipe in the crib and then the stream of urine across the floor. After I got done laughing about it I had fun giving him a bath(another favorite of his). He is so fun and I love to see him happy!






Tuesday, February 10, 2009

“Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.”

Elizabeth Stone
This time of year has always been hard for me, but now that McKay is 20 months and running EVERYWHERE I have been able to see the lighter side of things. I love to hear McKay's laugh. That is the happiest sound I have ever heard. He brings so much joy to everyone, especially Grandma and Grandpa Hayes. We watch him explore and play and it reminds me that happiness is just seconds away. I live to see Doug and McKay happy! I knew I would love being a mom and a wife, but the overwhelming joy and love I feel for them shocks me with its power and expandable nature. And when McKay reaches for me I understand just a bit of what He feels for each of us. This tiny little person is my world, my life and my salvation! I love being a mommy!